Dearest Samira.

Thanksgiving 2011.

Data cleanup scripts....seems just like yesterday we brought them into the world to only be releasing them in to production with the hope that they don't show up at your door in the middle of the night in the company of police.

Gods damnit

That was a busy work week.

1) People sure like to fetishistize Thanksgiving and Christmas.
2) Found I was self censoring myself on Facebook. Fuck that is what I wish I could post there.

INTO my heart on air that kills
From yon far country blows:
What are those blue remembered hills,
What spires, what farms are those?
That is the land of lost content,
I see it shining plain,
The happy highways where I went
And cannot come again. -A.E. Housman

An event horizon

Stopped behind a school bus
picking up first graders
the Chekhov radiation
pulsed out as the kids,
and I don't use this word lightly,
scampered aboard.
I wanted to get out of the
car and join the parents
to wave good bye as the bus
drove away but that
would have been just weird.

Its going to take a little time to process this weekend.

Just 2 conversation tidbits.

"I had never camped until I met my future wife. She took me camping all over New England, except of course New Hampshire where there was a warrant out for my arrest."

"Honey, my blood sugar is 409. Can you bring me my insulin."
Later
"138, perfect! Lets make some smores."

"Labor Day 2011, Sitting by Grinells Beach with myfavorite girl . Watching flag rustling in the wind ,birds flying, sailboats sailing,power boats powering,fishermen fishing,swimmer testing the water some taking the plunge under pale blue sky.Memories only one person knows"

-Pop on facebook

All night?

Late summer still has my windows open
and could hear my neighbors
talking and laughing
last night before bed
and still this morning
when I woke up.

Foggy morning time travel

Woke up and
first thought it was Friday
and had to go to work
then
thought it was Sunday
and that the weekend
was flying by
then
realized it was Saturday
and was happy.

Don't trust anyone over thirty.

"Go ahead, push the button."
Click
"Done."
Later that day
Dame Judy Dench says
"Listen
to this song."
Helen Mirren calls
from the kitchen
"Coffee
is almost ready."
Gaia whispers
"Come
walk with me."

Eudaimonia

What would it take?
An acre?
The right tools?

A hand from the other side of the planet.

Friendly and
knowledgeable
he helped get
the job done.

No explanation needed.

Nearly every time I
talk to, or spend time
with my kids, their friends and better
half's
I come away feeling
good.

Ease into the day with some
easy evaporation.

Part two.

Work guy who, in his car, uses
the go straight lane
to get ahead and then cuts
into right turn only
lane at the last second
did it again this morning
but wait
in work he ran by
me in the hallway
to get to the coffee machine
first.
I could not make that up.
Luckily there is more
than one stall in
the bathroom so he
didn't race me there.

"That dream of getting it right,
the way other people have done it,
it's the dream of correcting the past,
and it's powerful and seductive but futile."
Cary Tennis

Heavy rain,
low glowering clouds,
followed by bright blue
sky with white
cumulus.

It is hard to write anything
about divorce without
sounding
bitter or Pollyanna.
There were struggles and wonders
before
and
after.

Past beyond reach

That ship has sailed,
Horses are out
of the barn,
the train has left the
station
and time paradox
keeps my
grandmother safe.

How to end a phone call

"Have to
go,
I have a headlight
ready to
come out
of the oven."

Ornery.

Red squirrel in
grey recycle bin this morning.
I don't need to be forgiven.
Screw that.
August is here
and the heart wants what
it wants.