End of August brings a 3 month software engineering gig.Good to see "working Rick" back on the council of Ricks. Just need to make sure I dont unfairly burden him with all the lifting of a complete life.
Where from here we go.
"He who learns must suffer and even in our sleep the pain we cannot forget falls drop by drop upon our heart and in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God."
Monday, September 02, 2019
Wednesday, November 09, 2016
In style.
This is camping. I am at a KOA in Hagerstown Maryland, got electricity on the site so am using my electric blanket. Thanks Obama!
Late start
Long slow start with news of the election coming from Than while I was making breakfast. Lots of discussion. Lite rain first thing however steadily increasing. The Deleware river kept rolling by, didn't seem concerned with the crushing news. Rain clouds slowly rolled down the nearby hills. Felt the need to put on some miles so just headed for route 81 and drove south. In a KOA in Hagerstown Maryland for the night. Got electricity so I can plug in my electric blanket. Old man likes to stay warm.
Tuesday, November 08, 2016
Worthington State forest campground
Campsite is 100 hundred feet from and overlooking the Deleware river. After dusk a flock of geese landed on the river with a splash honking there way in. 5:50 pm and it is pitch black with the exception of the half moon shining through some high clouds. Only one other camper in the campground. Many big beech trees with thier leaves a golden brown on this warm autumn night.
Sunday, November 06, 2016
Monday, October 12, 2015
October 9th at the counter of the Hill Top Restaurant (Breakfast served all day!)
Me: What fair?
Guy: Fryeburg fair.
Me: Nope, just camping here at the state park. Are you going?
Guy: Nope, going to the fair is like going to the Mall at christmas. Besides I live around here and I know what cows and pigs look like.
Me: I hear that they are pretty special cows and pigs.
Guy: Right, the cows moo ribbons!
Sunday, September 06, 2015
Pee dream
Just as I start 2 kids, as only I can describe as street urchins out of a Dickens novel, come by and are hanging out. Ignoring me but not quite ignoring me.
When I finish they approach me and I definitely feel threatened. I try to mollify them by telling them I had to go to a meeting at work but I could stop and buy them some soda on the way. One of the kids is very interested that I am going to a meeting and wants to attend with me.
The dream ends with me trying to figure out out to explain this at work.
Friday, August 21, 2015
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Friday, July 24, 2015
Four men
One - sitting on the steps of St. Andrews episcopal church intently studying a box of a Stoffers frozen dinner.
Two - at Ayer train station scratching off his lottery tickets. Later rode his bike away before the train arrived.
Three - bicycle paint can guy, again with a paint can, however this time wearing white painter bib overalls.
Four - train conductor miming a rabbit running away from a California wild fire.
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Quantum limbs
My legs divide the infinite number of points between the train station and work into a finite number of steps. Now if I can only get them to divide by zero.
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
Overheard on train.
Passenger : Stop and Shop used to have their own standalone bakery stores.
Conductor : I can't believe I didn't know that, but you know my wife does all the shopping.
Saturday, July 18, 2015
Sunday, July 12, 2015
Monday, July 06, 2015
Sunday, July 05, 2015
Friday, July 03, 2015
A click that will alter my life.
For a few hours I kept coming back to it,
knowing that tomorrow would be a different day.
I could not do it and I berated myself.
Today, 5 days later, I think that the fear I have is
trying to teach me. Its not a leap of faith if there is
no leap.
Monday, June 22, 2015
Friday, June 19, 2015
It was Vijayesh.
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Engagement ring
Jocelyn and I were 100% into the whole thing.
I felt I had discovered the secret of being an adult.
With that love,we brought into this universe 2 men
who now can contemplate that very same universe. Atoms
thinking about atoms.
I was right, its more than a ring, a good hourcrux that is now handed down to the next generation. Jocelyn and I are lucky beyond words. We were just a little off on our expectations of how long something lasts that close to an event horizon.
SaturdayJune 13th 2015
In Dad's kitchen I ask "Did we just get beat up by a 75 year old?"
He answer "Yes, I think we did."
4:50pm
The nurse says "Samira's eyes look different."
Samira makes a mocking face at the nurse.
We agree. Dad says she looks like she does recognize us.
4:35 pm
Dad says "I'll need to talk to the nurse in charge when we go in before supper."
I say "Maybe we should go in now?"
Dad says "Yes"
4:30 pm
On the outside porch overlooking the river.
Samira gets my beard in an iron grip so hard I have to grab her wrist and pry open her hand.
Samira grabs the flesh of Dad's forearms and scratches and he has to pull away.
Samira wacks my Dad in the head.
Samira snarls and pushes our hands away.
4:10pm
While waiting for the nurses aids to get Samira up we sit by her bed.
Samira looks back and forth and gently rubs Dads head
and enjoys the chocolates he brings her.
3:45 pm
On the way over to visit Samira Dad say how Samira has been doing better,
showing interest in the conversations going on around and with her, at times answering questions with a yes or no.
Sunday, November 02, 2014
Saturday, October 11, 2014
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Sunday, September 07, 2014
Friday, September 05, 2014
Now hey you, mister, can't you read?
"Sign, sign everywhere a sign
Blocking out scenery, breaking my mind
do this, don't do that, can't you read the sign? " Five Man Electrical Band
Tuesday, September 02, 2014
Monday, September 01, 2014
Weather is here, wish you were fine.
to being
naked or famous on the
first of September.
Who wouldn't be angry
where I rent
decided to disconnect the washer and dryer
to drive one of the other tenants from the
building.
It was a huge inconvenience to me and
I wrote an email to the landlord that
simmered with self righteousness.
I gather up my 2 loads of laundry and headed
stiff necked to the 24 hour Bubble It laundromat in town.
I had access to multiple washer and dryers so my
two loads were done within an hour and
while rereading Cats Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut
time to just skipped by.
Yup, worked out just fine.
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Reintroduced to bum knuckles.
change a thought.
When in doubt,
push a pawn.
Nashua River Trail
biked me.)
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Things I touch on the walk to and from work.
This is in the order into work.
2 wooden railings.
Cedar tree.
Bent guardrail.
Snow pole on a fire hydrant.
Tree stump.
On the way home reverse the order but add brushing my hand over a pine tree's needles after passing the wood railings.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Saturday, August 16, 2014
On the way home.
A house was getting a new drive way
And that day they had removed the old driveway
down to the dirt right out to the road including part of the sidewalk.
A kid about 5 or 6 gets out of a car that just pulled into the driveway and runs to the edge at the road and exclaims "O my God, they cut the sidewalk. " slight pause "I loved that sidewalk. "
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Engineer was yanking my chain.
Wednesday, August 06, 2014
The absurdity
as I stand and gaze over the cubicle farm.
I have to laugh.
Tuesday, August 05, 2014
Monday, August 04, 2014
I'll bend over for that.
Good luck proving it hasn't been in my
pocket the whole time.
Sunday, August 03, 2014
A lesson in the laundry room from Marjorie
and I responded 11.
She asked how I was liking it and I said
it was nice and I liked overlooking the pond.
Marjorie responded "When its not smelling like vinegar."
I back pedaled a little bit and said that I still liked
the sound of the trains.
Marjorie said "You will get used to it just like she
got used to the traffic noise out front."
Big time
of establishing patterns based a limited amounts of data
I also have used to conflate a single event to represent
the inevitability of all future interactions with 3 and one half billion.
OK Righteous Anger, come in and have a seat.
What can I get you?
An ashtray?
A coaster?
Put your feet up and lets talk.
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
The exit door is a mystery.
Turns out the conductor's are not quite sure either which train door will be used to exit the train. Seems to be up to the engineer and he keeps it a secret.
Monday, July 28, 2014
Much faster
but this office is so uptight that
I don't even dare ask.)
Soaked walking to work.
Using it to dry my shoes and keep my feet warm!
Is there no problem technology can't solve.
Suck it monkeys .)
Friday, July 25, 2014
Women a sleep on bench
end to end. On Wednesday night when I got
there on the way home there was a young women
fast asleep on one of the benches. She was on her
back, her phone balanced on her stomach. She was lightly
snoring. I sat on the other bench next to her and
started to read a book while waiting for the train.
In a few minutes her phone rang and she woke up
with a start, grabbed her phone, and looked around her.
When she saw me she gave out a yelp, jumped to her
feet and dropped her phone.
She clutched her chest, took a deep breath and apologized
saying she gets spooked when people sneak up
on her.
The train came a few minutes later and she did not
get on.
A women on foot
she approached and asked
"Sir, can you tell me the way
to the Federal prison at Ft, Devens?"
I said I thought it was a couple of miles
away so a bit of a walk, she shrugged.
I said I had never been there (pun?)
but there was a sign pointing to Ft Devens
at the rotary not to far away.
Its about 6 hours later now and I can
not help wondering what happened.
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Woman and a bear.
on a Sunday night, coming in the opposite direction on the
other side of the road is a little old woman. She sees me and makes her
way over to my side of the road, some drivers politely stopping
to let her by, and tells me about the bear that was spotted
on this road this very morning while she was out for a walk.
In the story a man stopped his car and offered to drive her
safely home but she said no because she did not know who he was.
So he drove slowly along the road so she could walk by the car
till she was home. I asked her how big the bear was and she held
her arms out wide, just like how you would give someone a bear hug.
Friday, July 18, 2014
One day, two bird stories
cupped hard doing a stall before hitting the water.
Walking past the coop on Lexington road I could not see any chickens. I said out loud "Sleeping in late this morning , lady's!" which gave my brain permission to stop looking for the chickens and see where they were, scratching in the shadows under some bushes.
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Tale of Two Poop Shutes
the much younger with a grunt and a cry.)
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Not sure why I like this
"The boat leaned into the waves under the weight of the wind." - Ted Kosmatka
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Thirty Than years
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Saturday, July 12, 2014
All the jingoism left me jangled.
Monday, February 24, 2014
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Saturday night and not to shabby.
Dr. Who to binge on, blazing chicken wheat wraps, grandson fast asleep upstairs.
Friday, February 21, 2014
Hey, somethings
1)Walk so it shows on a map.
2)Driving to and grok national parks.
3)Read,Read,Read
4)Correspondence with people.
5)Eat well and frugally.
6)Don't self censor this damn list.
7) Do something to benefit folks.
*************************
1) Work with people I care about.
2)Work more with my body.
3)Help someone.
4)WOOF
5) Dentist while still working.
6) Prescription sunglasses.
Sunday, February 16, 2014
A little trippy
and at vibrates at this very low octave
and at times, just sometimes, it responds in sympathy to an ineffable
universe.
Sunday, December 01, 2013
Sunday morning.
Heating up crepes and turkey sausage in the beast. Sipping hot coffee and listening to the radio. Siting alone, am I lonely? A blend of the two. No going back, one step forward at a time and acceptance of what is.
Sunday, November 03, 2013
Campsites 21, A, B,C and D - the Pines.
Site B,C and D - a group of seven friends, looked like mostly in their twenties. A Ford Focus, Jeep Cherokee and a Honda Civic Coupe. Lots of bikes. They had a dog, Charlie, who looked like darker brown Weimaraner on the small side (maybe still growing). When off their leashes the two dogs would chase each other like crazy. On Saturday night they all sang happy birthday. They mostly wore LED head lamps and at night it was so dark that all you could see was the lights bobbing around, like disembodied light creatures.
The profoundness of the ordinary
Holy bodhi tree Batman.
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Sunday morning.
Thursday and Sunday the campground is empty except for the sound of birds, wind in the trees and the slight snick of White Pine needles falling to the ground. Nice place for a hot cup of Ethiopian coffee and a book.
What does this mean?
It took 4 days to shake off a 3 day work week.
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Can't quit my day job.
At check in the ranger asked if I had a particular site in mind. I said that there was this short dirt spur road, sites numbered twenty something, that looked nice. He looked on the computer and after a bit called the other ranger over and said to him "Can we give him 21? ". The second ranger gave me a quick look and said yes. First ranger said to me that this a special site, not even on the maps, reserved for the camp host however they had already left for the season. "In the future you can't request this site ." I said great and did this make me a State employee? He looked over the top of his glasses and said "No " and after a pause "That's not something you would brag about anyway."
Saturday, October 05, 2013
Wednesday, October 02, 2013
Email from 5 years ago
Subject: The big day cometh
To: mariefinigan@yahoo.com
Date: Tuesday, October 7, 2008, 12:34 PM
Hi Claire, The wedding rapidly approaching and I am looking forward to seeing you. I was reviewing the logistical plans that Michelle has drawn up and I wanted to make sure that you knew that Ricky wants to have his picture taken with you and my brother Chris before the wedding at the church at 4:45 (1/2 hour before thew actual wedding starts). If that doesn't work let me know and we can make other plans. Ricky had his bachelor party last Saturday. It was at a cigar bar. I still can get a wiff of cigars when I get in my car. It was great to see him very excited about the wedding with Than and many of his friends. There is a bitter sweet element for me to all this. I wish my Mom were here to see this, as I bet you wish Bert were here as well. I also wish I was experiencing this holding my wife's hand. That's the bitter part. The sweet part is I know I was raised by a woman who loved me, married to a woman I loved deeply and am very lucky to have 2 great boys and a family of love to surround me. I am so looking to give you a big hug Saturday, Love Rick |
Sunday, September 29, 2013
Venti half decaf, half dark roast.
We had all entered the store,
chose what we wanted,
paid in a variety of ways.
Later, on the second floor,
however its not that way.
These women and men, seated around tables waiting to be fed,
caretakers moving from table to table bringing food to their mouths.
Sunday, September 22, 2013
Rainy morning camping
a six year old rode her bike over to check out what I
was doing. I said "Hey, know what happens when you ride your bike in the rain?"
to which she shook her head no. "You get wet." She laughed and said
she didn't mind because she had plenty of dry clothes to put on.
She then told me her dad had said he wished he had a pop up camper like mine
when it rains and I replied it was pretty nice. She then told me one of the secrets of
happiness. "You know what I like about camping in the rain?, I get to eat blueberry pancakes in the tent."
Amen sister.
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Preen my feathers at dusk.
I took a bath with five ducks. As I cleaned the sand from between my toes in preparation for putting my socks on three of the ducks turned there heads backwards, shrugged their shoulders up and stood perfectly still on one leg. They held that pose for as long as I could see them as I walked back through the rapidly darkening woods towards camp.
Walk around Big Cliff Pond
I had been walking counter clockwise around the pond when I came upon 3 kids. There was 13 and 7 year old girls and a 10 year old boy. The 10 year old said they had been abandoned by thier parents and pointing to 3 kayaks said the wind was blowing to hard to paddle away. The 7 year old was playing at the edge of the water and the 13 year old was stretched out in the equinox sun. The 10 year old then asked me what I knew about solar clocks. He pointed to a circle drawn in the sand with 4 sticks at the cardinal points with a shadow of one pointing to a stone which he said meant it was 12 noon. I asked if he wanted to verify the time with my phone to which the 13 year old, eyes still closed, said "Please God yes! " The phone said it was 11:01 am. After a moment he adjusted the 12 o'clock stick in anticipation of the shadow crossing the stone in an hour. As I started to walk away I said not to worry that they had plenty water to drink from the pond and anyway they might be better off without their parents. That made the 7 year old laugh.
Friday, September 20, 2013
Thursday, September 19, 2013
September 9th, the expirement
the walls of an impervious reaction vessel.
Results showed the vessel was part of the experiment
which makes the Brownian tracks of the ever
continuing results speak with a different voice.
34 times doesn't mark failure,
it marks results that continue to amaze.
Monday, September 16, 2013
Down to my toes.
meets and holds my gaze. I am held in
the palm of the universe,
eons of evolution ringing
like a bell.
Monday, July 29, 2013
A gift
of comforting a one month
old. Hold him, walk with him and
pat his back. He farts, the crying tapers off
and then he
settles back in against my chest.
Thursday, July 25, 2013
X marks the spot.
and in front of me is a cross of shadows
from the legs of the coffee table.
The overcast sky was causing the light to enter
both my North and South facing windows
pretty much the same.
That light had just leaped off a star
9 minutes earlier.
Monday, July 22, 2013
A mighty fine nap.
but not pulled through to true sleep
time became meaningless and yet
it was blissful. The slow ascent after was equally
sweet. Like floating up through a long
dark tunnel until my eyes were able to open
and it was dusk outside.
Sunday, July 07, 2013
Tuesday, July 02, 2013
Friday, June 28, 2013
At the alter
The vigil bringing us together
to bear witness.
Star stuff joining star stuff
to welcome to this world baby Wood.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Nathaniel's Facebook Entry upon the death of Tybee
Things fall apart, everything tends to decay
And so it takes a lot to combine atoms in such a way
That they resist the lure of that darkness
that lurks around the edges of every day
So I’m inviting you to join me in this fight
to go down to the river, and come up all three times
Hank Williams was right: no one gets out alive
All we can do is try to have a really good time
Resist the tide, stand in the water
That’s baptism, that’s making light
Electricity is proof that there can be
A little bit of light in all this darkness
So please don’t go so gently into that good night
Rage, rage, rage against the dying of the light
You know you got a voice, to talk with you can call your own!
So clear your throat, and start singing this song:
Resist the tide, stand in the water
That’s baptism, that’s making light
Electricity is proof that there can be light
It takes a lot of work, but oh baby, it’s worth it
-Cynthia Hopkins
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Fathers day 2013
A hospital visit to join in receiving good pregnancy news.
Tears on the phone as a faithful dog's fate is wrestled with.
Don't get that in a Hallmark card.
Monday, May 27, 2013
I am a cairn
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Baby shower.
All around people rush to these with smiles
that are denied me until I am there.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Sunday, May 05, 2013
Friday, May 03, 2013
I know it when I see it.
Thursday, May 02, 2013
Monday, April 29, 2013
Crow
I like a song bird outside my window
in the morning however
it is the crow that speaks to me
with something to say.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Sunday, April 14, 2013
Holy shit
I held a device in my hand
that directed my eyes up into the
night sky to watch a space station
pass overhead.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
A journey
back 30 years, welcomed into
a home filled with love, humor
and good soup.
Tuesday, April 09, 2013
Monday, April 08, 2013
A moment.
brushed lightly two or three times over the picture
of onion scapes on my shirt
ran her fingers through my beard
and after a pause looked me in the eye
and smiled.
Saturday, April 06, 2013
Thursday, April 04, 2013
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Monday, March 04, 2013
Sunday, March 03, 2013
Allium sativum
last years garlic in march,
bulb dry and papery, two poles
slender elegant, flat and hairy.
Crushed with the flat of a knife
sticky, slippery , sharp, smooth white.